Dilema

Been melancholy this few days. I don't know why.. but maybe perhaps it's because of M. I don't know what to do. I'm jealous. But who am i to be jealous for? I don't matter much in her life. Sigh. I wanted her to know how much i feel about her, but i'm scared of the consequences. Perhaps i should just let it go?? Since how hard i try it won't make a difference. How i wish i was A.. But i am who i am.. i'm not A or any other guy. I need a girl that can accept me for who i am. Girls seriously suck.

If

If...

If you could be mine

If you could stay by my side

If you could accept my love

If you know how much i love you

If you know how much my hearts hurt everytime i see you with another guy

If you know that i love you...

If i was good enough for you

If i could be more caring

If i could be better

If i could change my attitude for you

If i could show you that i'm different

But i guess..